Friends gone home now. Been out for what was a lovely few hours. Brave face wasn’t hard. Good food company cricket banter. Perhaps the beers have made me feel sorry for myself. Perhaps the brave face isn’t as easy as I thought. Just want all my lot home to roost now. Bit sad. Lot sad. Don’t worry though. This is not some reaching out need help plea this just me venting a little. Typing this knowing that people will read it is a double edge sword, but I am holding the handle. Missing my full clan. I am one of five. So lonely right now but by the time you read yhis I will be fine and strong again.
I miss mum. I miss dad. I miss my wife. I miss my son. I love what I have got. Stop. Take stock.